Party

I have found out something about myself I really didn't know til last weekend. I am the life of the party as long as it's a normal party. When things are being done that aren't the norm, in my world, my walls go up and I tried very hard, but I could not get them to come down. I felt stupid, cuz I was now the person who instead of being in the middle of everything I was the wall flower. I am usually the fun one, the crazy one, the "I can't believe she just did that" one. Even though I had a great time it just wasn't the same. It made me feel really old. But hey I figure that has to be some kind of record to be 30 the first (and last) time I went to a bar. I'm sorry but I really don't see the appeal. The dancing was fun, but people wouldn't stay out of my "purple circle". I found out a wedding ring is a great repellant. All I had to do is point it towards the men and they would stop their advances. Maybe I am letting my OCD run my life a little, but that place was sooooo dirty. Maybe that is why I couldn't relax. Oh well, it was still a really fun night that I won't ever forget and it's always a good thing to try something new to see if you like it. Apparently I don't like being out of my comfort zone, but then again, who does?